i just don't know what too do

you say you love me' why don't i feeel like you do; why do i feeel its her '& you not us?
i don't want too walk away but what if those people were right; do i jump '& take that risk '& just hope that that feeeling i have deep down doesn't come true.
i feeel as if she's getting in the way again. you lied to me about her going to your house, you hide the texts the past; what else are you lying about? i don't know what too trust anymore.

at times when we are together nothing feels more better; but then she some how ends up in the picture again and it feels like a ton of bricks have just hit me all over again.
i don't want too loose you but at this rate i am .
anyone know how to help?